Monday, March 19, 2012

The weekend!



















I hope everyone had a Great weekend.. We've been having beautiful weather around these parts of the world. I spent some much needed time with Jake & Emzy.


Not really much new to report here... Just workin' and goin' to school as usual. Counting the days until vacation.48 days, 14 hours, 7 minuets & 24 seconds :)

















Wednesday, March 14, 2012

Well its been a few days...

Well, its been a few days since i've posted on here..

My heart has been very heavy these last few days. On Friday Joe & I got some very devistating news... Don't want to post it for the world to see but please keep us in your prayers. We are slowly coming to terms with it and starting to pick up the pieces and figuring out what we are going to do next.

Wednesday, March 7, 2012

And the Results are in....

Last week I had EIGHT tubes of blood drawn to check my horimone levels & to check me for diabetes. Everything came back normal except my insulin level is a bit high which is to be expected with PCOS.

Most of the time I would be happy about having good test results... But this time im very heartbroken. I just want them to fix me. If all my bloodwork comes back ok there is nothing to fix. We know something is wrong and we've been searching for it for 8 years..I deserve answers. "I dont know" or "its the PCOS" just isnt good enough excuses anymore.

Has anyone else noticed that EVERYONE is getting pregnant & having babies these days or is it just me b/c of the situation im in? I think if one more person says "im pregnant" im going to have a stroke. Its hard for me to accept because ive been thru so much on this journey to baby #1 and other people are onto baby #1,2,3,4,5 or 6..... And don't get me started on those people who are baby making factories who can't even take care of themselves let alone a little baby...

Also, i find it annoying that most (not all.. dont get offensive if you are reading this and have said this to me before) people who say "oh, it'll work out" or "it will happen when its your time" or even "dont give up hope" have 1 or more kids and have no idea how infertility effects your life, your marriage, your body, your mind, your emotions, & your heart.

Guess ill go drown myself in my river of tears... Until next time...

Tuesday, March 6, 2012

Here we go again....

I decided to start up my blog again..(like I dont have enough stuff on my plate already!) let me just do a quick overview of where I am right now in my life...

1. I am 5 classes from being done with my bachelors degree in business mgmt.
2. Joe & I have been married almost 7 years.. man time flies
3. I have an awesome niece & nephew. who are 1 & 4
4. I have a great job working for Financial Healthcare Resources doing hospital billing.
5. Joe & I are TTC. This will be year EIGHT. But we have hopes this is our year. (you will hear alot about this in the blog)
6. Joe & I are trying to be debt free by the end of 2012 (except for our house, car, & student loans)
7. I currently dont have any contact w/ any of my family... - LONG story, that i'll try not to bore you with.
8. I just recently started a healthier life style of eating.

I think thats about it going on w/ me right now.

Happy Reading....